feeling overwhelmed
feeling grateful
feeling drained
feeling nostalgic
feeling hopeful
feeling jdsjfkngnkjgkfdjgkdfjgkdng msnasdf
feeling agitated
feeling unqualified
feeling despotic
feeling self-conscious
feeling pain
feeling excitement
feeling anxious
feeling hungry
feeling suffocated
feeling let down
feeling sleepy
feeling exhausted
feeling bored
feeling scattered
feeling worried
feeling fake
how can someone feel so much all at one time.
shut these emotions off. i hate them.
i hate never having calmness inside. i hate having 9 million different things running through my mind at one time. i hate headaches. i hate bad news. i hate bullies. i hate putting laundry away. i hate bad moods. i hate when people use windsheild wipers at speeds that are not appropriate for the amount of rain that is falling, i hate that my bath tub isnt big enough for me to be completely submerged by water. i hate that ive read all of the sookie books and twilight books and now nothing is worth my reading time. i hate capital letters. i hate money. i hate calories. i hate the opening credits for dexter. i hate DRA. i hate disobedient animals. i hate being so consumed with trying to survive being a teacher that i don't have time to think about michael. i hate that i dont have time for my friends.
i hate when students dont listen. i hate when people blame student behavior on bad parenting. i hate bad parenting. i hate when people push agendas. i hate that it isnt socially acceptable to decorate for christmas in july. i hate self-absorbed blogs that make me seem like i hate my life when really i am just having an off.....afternoon/evening and love almost everything about my life but just need to vent. i hate that crystal wont let me have one of her babies. i hate that she wont let me move in with her. i hate that i cant be her live-in nanny. i hate that i am going to have to come up with a plan to steal her children. i hate how difficult it will be coming up with a story to tell the family as to why crystal's children went missing around the same time i magically gave birth to two 10 month olds. i hate how much i love them. (actually...thats absurd. i love how much i love them)
ahh...getting on in a terrible mood and just by simply typing ANYTHING that came to mind- my mood has changed. if you ever wanted a look inside my mind...you just saw it. i signed on not having a plan of what to blog. simply started typing. holy cow my randomness is tiring. i love free-writing. its basically therapy. do i think an occasional xanax might calm my over-active mind down? sure. do you want to me capitalize my letters because it is easier to read? sure. will either happen? nope.
hahahaha, i thought i was the only one that had a mind that thinks that many things at once. it's very irritating, but not as much as trying to type with no caps! glad you feel better. love you bunches!!
ReplyDeletecapital letters slow me down. i wanted to just type as fast as i could and worry about spelling etc. later. i really do feel calmed down. ahhh :)
ReplyDeleteThe capital letters missing just slightly (okay, more than slightly) threw off my OCD. I blogged yesterday to my dog and today about my first white hair... don't worry- it's what all the cool bloggers are doing :P.
ReplyDeleteI love the windshield wipers comment...that drives me NUTS!!! Todd always leaves them on after it has stopped raining and I try so hard not to say anything but then I just end up reaching over and turning them off! haha! :) Love ya girl! :)
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